There's a song my Granny Joy used to play when I was a child and I was visiting her. I never felt the need to look it up (until now) but I never forgot it. As an adult I could reason the song was just the right mix of catchy and awful to stick in your mind almost forty years but I think it's something else. 

The song was "Patience (Herbert the Snail)" and the chorus went like this - 

Have patience, have patience. Don’t be in such a hurry. When you get impatient, you only start to worry. Remember, remember, that God is patient too. And think about the times when others have to wait for you.”

It's safe to assume my Granny actually played the whole album ''Music Machine: The Fruit Of The Spirit'' but I don't recall any of the other tracks on it.

I've always known family have prayed for me. I've always known Jesus was there with me every step of the way but I let my shame control me. I think that's why when I gave my life to God it was just so overwhelming, that someone like me after all that I'd done could still be loved. 

I've cried a lot over these past few months, more than I've cried my entire life. I liken the tears to Jesus' living water eroding the rock that has protected my heart all these years. His timing is perfect, always. Even when I don't see it he's working, even when I don't feel it he's working. 

I had certain expectations for my first Easter of having a relationship with the Lord and a Global Pandemic has thrown a spanner in the works. Or has it? I think as much as I miss my Church family and would love to spend time with them physically, this has given me the opportunity to reflect on the enormity of what Jesus did for all of us, and for me.

Our amazing Vicar has been reading daily devotionals from Ephesians and I found a page in the book Ephesians: Finding Your Identity in Christ that says Paul lists four qualities in Ephesians 4:2 that characterise those that follow Christ - 

"Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love."

I've always been gentle though I tried so very hard to hide it, same for allowing myself to love or be loved, and now I find myself humbled and loved in a way I could never have imagined. And then there's patience. 

The writer continues - 

"When you are characterised by Patience, you are willing to wait on the Lord for his timing. You are willing to wait for other people whose personalities annoy you. And you are willing to wait for God's answer when you are experiencing difficulties." 

During this time of social distancing we are challenged more than ever to practise patience, and Jesus says it's a necessity if we are to love others so it is certainly within us.

I think what I'm trying to say is hang in there. Once you understand you're living for eternal life with Jesus however long we are in lock down, however many physical events we must miss during this time the wait is really insignificant. It's what you do during the waiting that makes the difference. 

Wishing you and yours a very Happy Easter.